Tuesday, December 31, 2019

2019 Reading List


1. It's a great feeling to finish a book on the first day of the year. I listened to most of Elizabeth Acevedo's The Poet X (2018) on audiobook in the car today. I have always loved her poetry because of her fierceness, and she is able to translate that same power into her first novel. She writes beautifully about identity, religion, family, and voice.


2. Julie Lythcott-Haims' Real American: A Memoir (2017) is thoughtful and powerful and gorgeous. She writes meaningfully about blackness and her challenges with her and her children’s biracial/multiracial identity and about the importance of allies. Her journey to be the fierce leader she is now was both a meaningful window and mirror for me.

3. I had heard so much about Angie Thomas' The Hate U Give (2017) that it was hard to go into with an open mind. It is another book that I started over a year ago and had a hard time making progress in for a while. It's the first audiobook that I felt like I lost something from the interpretation of the narrator. Yes, there are some elements of the story that are oversimplified, but overall I appreciated its heart and all the three-dimensional characters. It asks many good questions.

4. I just love Anne Lamott. I went to hear her in person and ended up buying her book Almost Everything: Notes on Hope (2018). Everything she writes delights and inspires me. She is a phenomenal storyteller and her stories shine a light on everything she takes on.

5. I first learned about Henri Nouwen and his concept of "Ministry of Presence" from Catholic Charities, and so, as a Sacred Heart Quaker, I was excited when my Quaker meetings book club was reading one of his books, Life of the Beloved: Spiritual Living in a Secular World (1992). This book really spoke to my spiritual condition -- the importance of making space for a reciprocal relationship with the divine and of being intentional about gratitude and affirmation.

6. I always appreciate the Irish Jesuits' Sacred Space Books, including this one for the Advent and Christmas Season 2018-19. These books ensure that I take out time each day for my spiritual life.

7. I read Women's Speaking Justified and Other Pamphlets (2018), works of Margaret Fell's that were edited by Jane Donawerth and Rebecca Lush in order to review it for Friends Journal. I definitely would not have made it all the way through were I not reviewing it, but I genuinely enjoyed the window it gave me into Quaker history.

8. I enjoyed Kamala Harris' The Truths We Hold (2019). It is definitely equal parts memoir and political philosophy statement/record to convince people to vote for her as she prepares to run for president. She's convinced me.

9. Cory Booker's United: Thoughts on Finding Common Ground and Advancing the Common Good (2016) made me really appreciate Senator Booker as a person, though he is self-deprecating to a point that makes me less excited about his presidential candidacy.


10. Walter Wink’s Jesus and Nonviolence: A Third Way (2003) marks the third book I’ve read in recent months that feels like it is speaking directly to my life’s philosophy (along with Krista Tippet’s Becoming Wise and Henri Nouwen’s Life of the Beloved). Jesus and Nonviolence describes how much more powerful love is than coercion. 

11. I bought How to Not Always Be Working: A Toolkit for Creativity and Radical Self-Care (2018) by Marlee Grace because it was on the staff recommendations shelf at Literati and because it is beautiful. I am not sure that I actually learned anything from it, but it gave me moments of peace while I read it.

12. Gabrielle Union's memoir, We’re Going to Need More Wine: Stories That Are Funny, Complicated, and True (2017), is funny and raunchy and shocking and honest. It is a fascinating window into the world of celebrity and a powerful mirror into the experiences of Black women. It is so much more about topics of social justice than one would guess, and I absolutely loved it. 

13. I absolutely loved Shonda Rhimes' Year of Yes: How to Dance It Out, Stand in the Sun and Be Your Own Person (2015). She talks about her initial decision (at the height of her success) to be bold and lean in, and then all the decisions she made as a result. She celebrates both fully embracing all that life has to offer (what she calls badassery) and the power of saying no.

14. I love Rebecca Solnit's ability to put what so many of us are thinking into beautiful prose. In Call Them by Their True Names: American Crises (and Essays) (2018) she explores the first two years of what we lovingly call The Resistance.

15. I read The Burning One-ness Binding Everything: A Spiritual Journey (1997) by Bruce Birchard because the Adult Religious Education committee is offering a session on it. I read it with a mind to create discussion questions and that was easy to do; this book is a reflection of great depth.

16. Ross Gay is a delightful man and his work The Book of Delights (2019) is a manifestation of the love and joy that is at his core. He illuminates the many ways that we are all connected to each other and to nature. The book is full of both wisdom and humor, often intertwined. 

17. Although I never read Kevin Kwan's Crazy Rich Asians, I loved the movie (and saw it twice in theaters!), which made reading China Rich Girlfriend (2015), the second in that trilogy, quite enjoyable. I can't remember the last time a book made me laugh out loud so often. It's rare that I read a book that is quite so much fun.

18. I have long loved Damon Young's humor on verysmartbrothas.theroot.com and I was struck when I first saw him present a year ago by just how humble and authentic he is. What Doesn't Kill You Makes You Blacker: A Memoir in Essays (2019) is the best of his humor and authenticity. He is raw and reflective and it is insightful and moving. 

19. Although I always appreciate the Irish Jesuits' Sacred Space Books, I had a harder time keeping up with the Lent 2019 book than I normally do. I still got many moving quotes and reflections from it, but it did not make its way as meaningfully into my everyday life as those books normally do.

20. Interestingly, as I read John Maeda's Redesigning Leadership (2011), I knew by the end that I would be surprised if he was still in the leadership role in which he was serving as he wrote the book (president of RISD, which he left he left after six years). The book is full of useful reflections, but they are clearly the reflections of an artist who is exhausted by the bureaucracy over which he was presiding. 

21. I read Thick (2018) by Tressie McMillan Cottom for one of my book clubs. I listened to the whole thing over the course of one morning. Cottom has a powerful voice about justice issues and how we need to deconstruct so much of our society that is oppressive.


22. I found Radical Candor: How to Get What You Want by Saying What You Mean (2017) by Kim Scott to be a wonderful book to help me think about being a manager. Much of what it suggests are strategies that I already use as a teacher, which made me feel empowered as I reflect upon taking a next step. It also had lots of useful practical advice.


23. Bettina Love's We Want to Do More than Survive: Abolitionist Teaching and the Pursuit of Educational Freedom (2019) has important reminders about centering love and justice in education. It was more theoretical than practical, but certainly an interesting read. 


24. My book club enjoyed Kevin Kwan's China Rich Girlfriend so much that we decided to have a bonus book club meeting to discuss the final book in that trilogy, Rich People Problems (2018). I have to admit I laughed out loud less than I did from China Rich Girlfriend, but I was desperate to find out what happened at every turn, and ended up binge reading it. 


25. Permission to Screw Up: How I Learned to Lead by Doing (Almost) Everything Wrong (2017) by Kristen Hadeed was on the recommended summer book list for my old school but seemed like a good fit for my new job. Although many of her choices are not ones that I would make, she's a great storyteller and the book makes a reader feel as though they are learning along with her. 


26. Women Talking (2019) by Miriam Toews is one of the best works of fiction that I have read in a long time. It is how Toews' imagines that the women who survived the "Bolivian Ghost Rapes" might have processed the terror they experienced. 

27. Pride (2018) by Ibi Zoboi is a Black-Latinx, Brooklyn-based YA version of Pride and Prejudice. I haven't read Pride and Prejudice, but I really enjoyed Pride's love story. 


28. How to Fight (2017) by Thich Nhat Hanh is a beautiful little book about how to not keep cycles of harm going in our personal lives. It might be more accurately called "How Not to Fight."


29. The Little Book of Restorative Justice in Education: Fostering Responsibility, Healing, and Hope in Schools (2016) by Katherine Evans and Dorothy Vaandering explains the values and beliefs behind restorative justice and how to use restorative practices proactively in schools. 


30. The buzz around Educated: A Memoir (2018) by Tata Westover has been inescapable for the last year and half. I now understand why. I thought it was the story of a woman growing up in a cult, but much more than that, it is a woman's story of how she beat the odds and found her voice and her power. 


31. One of my former colleagues encouraged me to read Redeeming Administration: 12 Spiritual Habits for Catholic Leaders in Parishes, Schools, Religious Communities,  and Other Institutions (2013) by Ann Garrido. It has been a wonderful catalyst for reflection as I begin a new chapter of my career.


32. Although it took me two years to finish, I truly loved Patrisse Khan-Cullors' When They Call You a Terrorist: A Black Lives Matter Manifesto (2017). It was powerful to learn about her family history as a way of understanding her personal context as she founded a movement that has been important to the country broadly and me individually for the past few years. 


33. Last year I went to a book talk for Brittney Cooper's Eloquent Rage: A Black Feminist Discovers Her Superpower (2018). The book talk was memorable. It was right after Black Panther had come out and the talk felt like it built on the momentum of the movie. Additionally, she was interviewed by Damon Young in the book talk, and the two of them were a perfect mix of thoughtful and delightful. The book itself has much of that same mix, and comes across as particularly bold and brave. It made me both laugh and feel empowered.

34. I loved every page of 27 Views of Carolina Friends School: A Quaker Community in Prose & Poetry. I learned a great deal about the school and I loved each of the personalized windows into people's passion for the place. 

35. I earned The Untethered Soul: The Journey beyond Yourself (2007) by Michael Singer for my participation in my school's wellness week. There are parts of it that resonated about healthy detachment from our emotions, but overall it felt a bit too ungrounded for me. It was always interesting to read a few pages at the beginning of Meeting for Worship for the past couple years.

36. Reading The Testaments (2019) by Margaret Atwood was like watching a great movie. I could not put this down. In the chaos of our current world, it was powerful to read about at least one imagined society that made its way to the other side.

37. I read The Madwoman of Cahillot by Jean Giraudoux (translated by Maurice Valency in 1947) because it is the play that my school is doing this fall. It's satirical and very weird in  a way that I'm not sure I fully appreciated. But it's critique of capitalism is just as relevant now as it was 70 years ago!

38. I started reading Singletasking: Getting More Done - One Thing at a Time by Devora Zack (2015) several years ago because the author presented in a professional development program I attended. It reminds me of Skinny Bitch in that I have continued to go back to it over the years when I need a push to abandon bad habits. I'm not sure it's totally groundbreaking, but it definitely has great reminders.

39. When looking for a different book, I found on my Quaker bookshelf an old copy of Barry Morley's Beyond Consensus: Salvaging Sense of the Meeting (1993). It catalyzed meaningful reflection on the ideals we're going for with Meetings for Business. Although the processes can be stressful, this pamphlet explores their potential power. 

40. As a spontaneous adventure, I saw the play Burn This (by Lanford Wilson, 1987) on Broadway this spring (because Facebook ads were telling me that it starred Kerri Russell and Adam Driver [who was absolutely brilliant!]. It spoke to me in a profound way, and I bought a magnet to remember its lessons. A week ago I was trying to remember what those lessons were, so I bought a copy of the play. The heart of what I love about it is that the right thing doesn't always present itself clearly. Sometimes the right thing for us is messy and hard. And we just have to trust that everything will be okay. 

41. I read the Pendle Hill pamphlet Building Bridges: Four Stories from the Bible (2019) by Elizabeth O'Sullivan for an upcoming book review. It's not that often that I encounter Quaker works that center Biblical stories and Jesus, and I appreciate those intersections wherever they exist. 

42. The Story (2004) by Tracey Scott Wilson is a play about the defining experience of my mother's life. It was powerful to read it on the anniversary of my mother's death. I was reminded of just how much of a force of nature she was. It's a thoughtful piece that addresses race and class in an honest way.

43. I picked up A Sin by Any Other Name: Reckoning with Racism and the Heritage of the South (2019) by Robert W. Lee  because it was in the local authors section of a local bookstore. Robert W. Lee, despite his relation to Robert E. Lee, has been a voice for racial justice in the last couple years. I found his book easy to read in many ways, but I also had questions in the end about how easy it was for him to tell his story when so many people of color fight the same issues go unnamed and unnoticed. I can't hold it against him that he found his platform, and yet I wished in the end that I had gotten his book out of the library instead of buying it.

44. Little Man, Little Man: A Story of Childhood (1976) was described by its author, James Baldwin, as a story about childhood for adults. It did not do particularly well when it was written and was out of print for a while. It was originally panned for not having too much of a story arc, but I appreciated the window into James Baldwin's world that it offered.

45. My Sister, the Serial Killer (2018) by Oyinkan Braithwaite was a quick and easy read. The story was interesting and leads to some interesting questions about the limits of loyalty. 

46. I feel as though having started a new job this year, I was not the target audience for Lead from the Outside: How to Build Your Future and Make Real Change by Stacey Abrams. It is a great how-to book for people thinking about their next steps. She's had a very interesting and very successful career, and this books takes the reader inside of how she worked strategically since her youth to get where she is.

47. I listened to How to Be an Antiracist (2019) by Ibram X Kendi as an audiobook, and I did not find it particularly engaging, as I did not feel like I was learning much that I could apply to my life or my work. I found his ideas and stories interesting, but there was not much that felt new in important ways. 

48. I've been reading Angela Davis's Freedom Is a Constant Struggle: Ferguson, Palestine, and the Foundations of a Movement (2015) for several years now. I'm grateful that someone with whom I share much of my views of justice has such a powerful and public platform.

49. Washington Black (2018) by Esi Edugyan is an epic story of a boy born into slavery in Barbados and swept into adventures around the world. I would say that I admired its storytelling and was entertained, but it was less thought-provoking than I had hoped. That could be because it was hard to keep all of the story elements straight because I listened to it as an audiobook.

50. I've been watching His Dark Materials on HBO, which led me to read Philip Pullman's The Golden Compass (1995). I love the book even more than the show because of all of its details. My second adventure story in a row, but I absolutely delighted in this one!

51. I was less engaged reading Philip Pullman's The Subtle Knife (1997) than The Golden Compass. As the second book in the trilogy, it felt like it was working hard just to be a bridge between the beginning and the end of this epic story. 

52. I absolutely loved Mira Jacob's Good Talk (2018), a graphic memoir about race in modern America, especially for an Indian-American woman and her biracial (half-white) son who is beginning to have questions about his identity after Trump's election. 

53. I got The Little Book of Hygge: Danish Secrets to Happy Living (2016) by Meik Wiking because my friend Andrea has long told me about the practice of hygge (coziness), and she cultivates it in her life and home, which is why I think of her house as my retreat center. The book felt more like food for thought than an actual practical guide, but it was very pleasant reading.

54. Philip Pullman's The Amber Spyglass (2000) was a powerful ending to the His Dark Materials trilogy. The book explores themes of religion, good and evil, sacrifice, agency, and so much more. 

55. Elena Aguilar's The Art of Coaching Teams: Building Resilient Communities that Transform Schools (2016) was the single most influential book of my fall as I became a principal. This book was absolutely transformational in my designing meaningful staff meetings.

Sunday, December 8, 2019

Wisdom from Give Us This Day

I receive Give Us This Day: Day Prayer for Today's Catholic as a Sacred Heart Associate and read it as part of my morning spiritual practice. Occasionally I come across something that I want to save. I will be recording those here.

October 15, 2019 - Fr. Richard M. Gula: "In the words of St. Teresa of Avila, whom we celebrate today, 'Yours are the hands through which God blesses the world,' and 'It is love alone that gives worth to all things.'"

Thursday, October 24, 2019

The Kindness of Strangers

Tonight I bought an ice cream bar and then promptly dropped it. Other people in line offered to let me get back in line in front of them, and then the employee just handed me a new bar and told me not to worry about it. There are few things I love more than easy kindness that feels like God holding you.

Right after typing the above, I read this story, which speaks to the same point: https://www.upworthy.com/opposing-team-members-surrounded-a-soccer-player-whose-hijab-slipped-and-its-fabulous

Thursday, October 17, 2019

One Moment I Knew I Was in the Right Place

At the volleyball team's first playoff game, staff from across the school came to support the team. Lower, Middle, and Upper School teachers, the Business Office, the Diversity Director, and the Head of School were there along with bleachers full of students and parents. And all on a staff work day when students didn't have school. Pretty special!



Sunday, April 21, 2019

The Spirituality of Waiting

I love the Irish Jesuit's Sacred Space books for Advent and Lent. They empower me to maintain the right mindset and heart space during those periods of spiritual preparation. In the spirit of not hoarding, I am letting go of some of the old books. Here are some of my favorite quotes therein:

Advent/Christmas 2015-16:

  • "The ends and the beginnings - past and future -- are always in the present tense of love."

Lent 2016:

  • Jesus "is determined to break down dramatically the barriers that fragment human community . . . if we want to be with him at the table, we must accept the companionship of people we previously despised."
  • "I ask for the grace to be free of my own preoccupations and open to what God may be saying to me."
  • "We can be smug and content with our conventional good behavior. Jesus, however, says to us: "But what about your anger? What about insulting someone? Do you despise anyone, ever? Such behavior won't do anymore."
  • "our hearts must embrace our enemies in genuine love."
  • "If we work int he world we must, again and again, climb to the top of the mountain, to be alone with God and with ourselves, our memories and desires. There we renew our strength to continue the struggle for a more just world."
  • "God is with me, but more, God is within me. Let me dwell for a moment on God's life-giving presence in my body, in my mind, and in my heart"
  • "without an eye for the needy around us, our life becomes self-centered and callous. Jesus is asking his listeners to open their eyes to what is around them and to open their ears to the simple commands of the gospel: love your neighbor."
  • "Prayer is enjoying moments of being loved."
  • "conversion is possible; we can return to our best - our truest - selves, and when we do we will find our loving God ready to welcome us home with open arms."
  • "I remind myself that there are things God has to teach me yet and ask for the grace to hear them and let them change me."
  • "Wise love takes many forms: it is not timid and passive; it can be demanding as well as long-suffering."
  • "I am God's dwelling place."
  • "Cleanse my heart and would so I may live joyously in your love."
  • "We, too, are never alone; the love, grace, and help of God are always with us."
  • "Jesus' promise is that the truth will make us free. Lord, I do want to be free, so let me listen to those who tell me the truth about myself. Let me listen also to your word, which tries to reach into my heart and liberate me."
  • "We are asked to suffer, if necessary, in order to foster the values of the kingdom . . .Jesus shows us how to bear it with love. Such love radiates and inspires others."
  • "Lord, when I find myself critical of others, it may be my own warped vision that needs to be corrected."


Lent 2017:

  • "Lent is a good time to stop our activity long enough to look at it carefully, prayerfully, and to determine the specific truths of the situation."
  • "Holiness is a greater marvel than special effects but less easily recognized."
  • "Jesus, help me be fully alive to your Holy Presence. Enfold me in your love. Let my heart become one with yours."


Advent and Christmas 2018-19:

  • "The true light . . . enlightens everyone"
  • "How will I know when it is my time to decrease, and how can I prepare my heart to respond graciously?"

Lent 2019:
  • Listening to Christ means "setting out on the journey with him to make oneself a gift of love to others"
  • "Prayer increases within us our capacity to love."
  • "Do I share with [God] all that I am living, my struggles and my joys, and the concrete situations for which I need his help?"
  • "[Jesus'] open and generous heart is the heart of God, inviting us all to rest where we are known and loved, to find enduring life and lasting refreshment." 
  • "You know how painful it is if your motives are misunderstood, if a twisted interpretation is put on your good intentions. Such experiences help you identify with Jesus and feel with him. Be there with him; share your experiences with him." 
  • "Do I think ill of others more readily than I credit them with good? Lord, give me the grace to see the best in others, as I'd wish them to see the best in me." 
  • "I find it so easy to feel superior to others in one way or another while being blind to my own shortcomings."
  • "I have no right to look down on those whose sins are paraded in the media."
  • "Prayer for another strengthens bonds, softens hearts"
  • "Compassion, kindness, and courage in my life are what make my words credible. May my life reflect what I profess."
  • "What is my image of God? The best image is to see God as Pure Love."
  • "If we live in this way, we transform the world."
Lent 2020:
  • "service that is large-hearted and humble."
  • "I ask for the grace to trust myself totally to God's love."
  • "Jesus is the one of universal welcome . . . I ask him to open my heart to be as welcoming to his."
  • Luke 1:38 -- Mary: "let it be with me according to your word."
  • "We are all called to live the truth."
  • "God is with me, but even more astounding, God is within me."
  • "Teach me to live in the knowledge that you will never abandon me [or others!]."
  • "help me to follow you and thus accept truth and demonstrate it through love." 
  • "Do I appreciate that I, too, am a temple of the living God?"
  • "We might allow moments of prayer this week to reach the zones within us that need tolerance, healing, and forgiveness."
  • "Jesus, may I give to you freely and not care about others' opinions and reactions."

Tuesday, February 26, 2019

Wisdom from Rebecca Solnit's Call Them by Their True Names

"Naming is the first step in the process of liberation." (1)
"Being careful and precise about language is one way to oppose the disintegration of meaning, to encourage the beloved community and the conversations that inculcate hope and vision." (4)
"Equality keeps us honest." [I would add that that is true in schools too!] (15)
"Women [have a] tendency to gather and ally rather than fight or flee." [This is what people often misunderstand about all girls schools when they say they must be filled with "catfighting."] (44)
From John Muir: "When we try to pick out anything by itself, we find it hitched to everything else in the Universe." (48)
"The reality of facts . . . are, after all, part of a network of systematic relationships among language, physical reality, and the record." (50)
"what we do begins with what we believe we can do. It begins with being open to the possibilities and interested in the complexities." [This can also be called moral imagination] (58)
"Often, it's an example of passionate idealism that converts others . . . Sometimes, rather than meeting people where they are, you can locate yourself someplace they will eventually want to be." (76)
"A city is a book we read by wandering its streets" (136)
"Not just a tolerance of difference, but a delight in it, love for it" (147)
About Standing Rock: "the people most involved seemed to get it tat this is a really nice chapter, not the end of the story, and you can celebrate that chapter." (149)
"the importance of knowing that we don't know what will happen next and have to live on principles, hunches, and lessons from history." (150)
"Stand[] up for what you believe in, even when victory seems remote to impossible." (150)
"Consequences are often indirect." (151)
"When activism wins, it's because, at least in part, the story has become the new narrative, the story the mainstream accepts." (158)
"Breaking a story is usually a prolonged, collaborative process. It usually begins with activists, witnesses, whistleblowers, and with victims, the people affected, the people on the front lines the people to whom the story happened. The next step is often carried out by people with storytelling powers who are willing to listen." (161)
Daniel Ellsberg: "You can't be objective, but you can be fair." [This is true in teaching too] (162)
"Every bad story is a prison; breaking the story breaks someone out of prison. It's liberation work. It matters. It changes the world." [Also what teachers do!] (163)
"Actions often ripple far beyond their immediate objective, and remembering this is a reason to live by principle and act in the hope that what you do matters, even when the results are unlikely to be immediate or obvious." (173)
"Hope for me has meant a sense that the future is unpredictable . . . but know we may be able to write it ourselves." (174)
Patrice Cullors on Black Lives Matter's mission: "rooted in grief and rage but pointed toward vision and dreams." (175)
"Ideas are contagious, emotions are contagious, hope is contagious, courage is contagious. When we embody those qualities, or their opposites, we convey them to others." (180)
"Consensus leaves no one out." (183)
"The only power adequate to stop tyranny and destruction is civil society, which is the great majority of us when we remember our power and come together . . . This work is always, first and last, storytelling work, or what some of my friends call 'the battle of the story.' Building, remembering, retelling, celebrating our own stories is part of our work." (184)
"This work will only matter if it's sustained. To sustain it, people have to believe that the myriad small, incremental actions matter. That they matter even when the consequences aren't immediate or obvious. They must remember that often when you fail at your immediate objective  . . . even then, you may have changed the whole framework in ways that make broader change more possible. You may change the story or the rules, give tools, templates, or encouragement to future activists, and make it possible for those around you to persist in their efforts." (184-185)

I love retreat!

I have always loved retreat. I love the opportunity to take a breath and reflect on my journey. Another gift of retreat is that it often reminds me to offer gratitude for the natural world.


Saturday, February 9, 2019

Rent


A couple weekends ago I decided to watch Rent: Live mostly on a whim. The production, which was fine but not great, reminded me of how much of an impact Rent has had in my life. I remember singing songs from Rent at (cast?) parties in middle school. We sang "Seasons of Love" in my eighth grade graduation. I'm pretty sure Rent was the first musical I saw on Broadway, on the same trip with friends (just after college?) during which I realized that Times Square was real. I loved, and own, the movie version and cried all over again when I watched it the day after Rent: Live. I've been listening to the various soundtracks on repeat for the past two weeks.

Rent is a beautiful story of people creating family. It centers people on the margins. It encourages all of us to be ourselves, no matter the consequences. And it calls us to love. I'm grateful to have it back in my life and hope to not have so long a break from its magic again.

Friday, February 8, 2019

The Power of Stories


I’m currently reading the book The Lost Art of Reading by David Ulin, which I love because it reminds me of why I love to read. He has a line in which he describes how we bring books to life by how we engage with them and how the books we read become a part of us as well. I can’t help but think of books like Just Mercy and My Promised Land and how deep an impact they have had on my understanding of the world. I’m currently on a memoir kick, and learning about what shapes people I respect has been meaningful in expanding my understanding of the beautiful and painful complexities of our world. As Gabrielle Union writes in her memoir, We’re Going to Need More Wine, “In the end, we are our stories."

Thursday, February 7, 2019

Trying New Things

It's not rare for me to try new things, but I haven't done new things recently that I've been evaluated on. That changed with the series of four 90-minute online classes on “Building the Beloved Community” classes that I just finished teaching.  I was solidly outside of my comfort zone throughout these four weeks. Not only is online teaching new to me, but I found it was a real challenge to “read the room” as I would if I were doing real teaching and to figure out how to make the activities interactive enough that people stayed engaged without making it feel scattered. 
The experience reminded me of running, which is an activity that I know I don't excel at, but I put in hard work and feel proud of what I’m able to do in the end. These endeavors where I feel excited about improving and where I have to stretch to be “good enough” are great empathy building experiences!

Sunday, February 3, 2019

Widsom from Walter Wink's Jesus and Nonviolence


“When a church that has not lived out a costly identification with the oppressed offers to mediate between hostile parties, it merely adds to the total impression that it wants to stay above the conflict and not take sides. The church says to the lion and the lamb, ‘Here, let me negotiate a truce,’ to which the lion replies, ‘Fine, after I finish my lunch.’” (4)

Justice, rather than peace alone, must be Christian goal. (5)

“can people who are engaged in oppressive acts repent unless they are made uncomfortable with their actions?” (25-6)

“It is important to repeat such stories in order to extend our imaginations for creative nonviolence. Since it is not a natural response, we need to be schooled in it.” (33)

“Both sides must win. We are summoned to pray for our enemies’ transformation, and to respond to ill-treatment with a love that not only is godly but also, I am convince,d can only be found in God.” (46)

“Never adopt a strategy that you would not want your opponents to use against you.” (46)
Jesus’ “teaching reads like a practical manual for empowering the powerless to seize the initiative even in situations impervious to change.” (48)

Jesus’ way is “a creative struggle to restore the humanity of all parties in a dispute.” (51)”

MLK quote: “One day we shall win freedom, but not only for ourselves. We shall so appeal to your heart and conscience that we shall win you in the process, and our victory will be a double victory.”  (58)

“It cannot be stressed too much: love of enemies has, for our time, become the litmus test of authentic Christian faith.” (58-9)

“When we dominos our enemies, calling them names and identifying them with absolute evil, we deny that they have that of God within them that makes transformation possible.” (59)

“I submit that the ultimate religious question today is . . . How can I find God in my enemy?”

“And no one can show others the error that is within them, as Thomas Merton wisely remarked, unless the others are convinced that their critic first sees and loves the good that is within them.” (62)

“Love of enemies is, in the broadest sense, behaving out of one’s own deepest self-interest . . . they need to be reassured continually that there will be a place for them int he new society being born.” (62-3)

James Bevel: “We cannot win by hating our oppressors. We have to love them into changing.” (65)

Jesus’ teaching “does not presuppose a threshold of decency, but something of God in everyone.” (67)

“The moment we argue that the South African defenders of apartheid are morally inferior beings, we reduce ourselves to their moral level.” (67)

“Jesus’ Third Way uses means commensurate with the new order we desire.” (69)

“it s voluntary submission to the due penalty of the law that discourages frivolous violations.” (74) “We are lawful in our illegality. It is only because we submit to the principle of law that we demand that unjust laws be made just in the first place.” (77)

Abandon “one of the greatest and oldest lies: that the world is made up of good people and bad people.” (79)

“People who engage in nonviolent protest without at least some awareness of this cesspool of violence within them can actually jeopardize the lives of their compatriots.” (80)

Jesus' Way “establishes us in freedom, not necessity. It is something we are not required to do, but enabled to do.” (82)

“We should not strike a neutral pose, says John Swomley, but side with the oppressed, even if they follow the bad example of their oppressors in resorting to violence . . . Violence is  . . . the presenting symptom of an unjust society. And peace is not the highest good; it is rather the outcome of a just social order.” (83)

Desmond Tutu: “We have no right to hope to harvest what we have not sown.” (86)

“Nonviolent training needs to become a regular and repetitive component of every change-oriented group’s life.” (88)

“It is precisely because the outcome is in question . . . that we need to choose a way of living that already is a living of the outcome we desire.” (88-89)

“Fear is remarkably responsive to the Holy Spirit. Our anxiety need not remain in our path, blocking our obedience.” (92)

Saturday, January 19, 2019

Wisdom from Henri Nouwen's Life of the Beloved


Since this book connected so deeply with my own sense of spirituality,  thought it was worth pulling out the lines that most struck me as I read.
  • "Isn't that what friendship is all about: giving to each other the gift of our belovedness?" (30)
  • "Whether I am inflated or deflated, I lose touch with my truth and distort my vision of reality." (33)
  • The voice of insecurity in our head says, "Prove that you are worth something; do something relevant, spectacular, or powerful, and then you will earn the love you so desire." (34)
  • The work of building the Beloved Community: "My parents, friends, teachers, students, and the many strangers who crossed my path have all sounded that voice [that calls me Beloved] in different tones. I have been cared for by many people with much tenderness and gentleness. I have been taught and instructed with much patience and perseverance. I have been encouraged to keep going when I was ready to give up and was stimulated to try again when I failed." (34-35)
  • "I hear at my center words that say: 'I have called you by name, from the very beginning. You are mine and I am yours.' . . . We are one" (36-37)
  • "Every time you listen with great attentiveness to the voice that calls you the Beloved, you will discover within yourself a desire to hear that voice longer and more deeply." (37) This reminds me of my goal for 2019!
  • "I beg you, do not surrender the word 'chosen' to the world. Dar to claim it as your own, even when it is constantly misunderstood. You must hold on to the truth that you are the chosen one. That truth is the bedrock on which you can build a life as the Beloved." (56) I think of this as "Light."
  • "When we keep claiming the light, we will find ourselves becoming more and more radiant." (62)
  • "Gratitude begets gratitude, just as love begets love." (62)
  • "It is impossible to compete for God's love." (64)
  • "We also need an ongoing blessing that allows us to hear in an ever-new way that we belong to a loving God who will never leave us alone, but will remind us always that we are guided by love on every step of our lives." (72) I felt this in 2018!
  • "if you develop the discipline of spending one half-hour a day listening to the voice of love, you will gradually discover that something is happening of which you were not even conscious." (77)
  • "One good way to listen is to listen with a sacred text." (78)
  • "most of all the blessings that come to us through words of gratitude, encouragement, affection, and love. These many blessings do not have to be invented. They are there, surrounding us on all sides." (81)
  • "Before concluding these thoughts about our being blessed, I must tell you that claiming your own blessedness always leads to a deep desire to bless others. The characteristic of the blessed ones is that, wherever they go, they always speak words of blessing. It is remarkable how easy it is to bless others, to speak good things to and about them, to call forth their beauty and truth, when you yourself are in touch with your own blessedness. The blessed one always blesses. And people want to be blessed!" (82) This one spoke to me so deeply that I almost shared it with my class. 
  • "Here joy and sorrow are no longer each other's opposites, but have become two sides of the same desire to grow to the fullness of the Beloved." (99)
  • "True joy, happiness, and inner peace come from the giving of ourselves to others." (109)
  • "It is the gift of our own life that shines through all we do." (113)
  • "Imagine that, in the center of your heart, you trust that your smiles and handshakes, your embraces and your kisses are only the early signs of a worldwide community of love and peace!" (123)
  • "we are called to live our lives with a deep inner joy and peace." (129)
  • "The Spirit of God, the Spirit that calls us the Beloved, is the Spirit that unites and makes whole. There is no clearer way to discern the presence of God's Spirit than to identify the moments of unification, healing, restoration, and reconciliation." (135) I annotated this passage with "This is what I believe."


Thursday, January 10, 2019

POCC 2018

I always love the National Association of Independent Schools People of Color Conference, and this year was one of my favorites. It was exactly what I needed that week because:


  • It was incredibly affirming. Between presenting twice, hosting a CSEE dinner, and being interviewed on film by NAIS, I felt like people appreciated what I had to offer.


  • There was a message of accepting that we are enough as we are, not worrying about anyone who doesn't see our light, and pushing for institutions to be Beloved Communities.
  • There was a recognition of how strong we are -- people of color broadly and people of color in independent schools specifically.
  • We were reminded of the power of vulnerability. 


  • I went to some great sessions
    • Real Talk Done Right: Engaging Our School Communities in Difficult Conversations
      • Importance of holding the space for affinity groups -- meet regularly
    • Here and Now: Using Current Events to Cultivate the Next Generation of Changemakers
      • Mantra at Park Day School is "If you see a problem, do something about it."
        • Teachers encourage students to make lists of possible solutions
      • Highlight exemplars




Wednesday, January 9, 2019

I can't wait to vote for Kamala Harris

I saw Kamala Harris tonight and mark my words -- she will be my president.

She is funny and passionate and fierce. She does not settle. She reminds me of President Obama in all the best ways. I can't wait to read her new book and then to support her campaign.

Here were some of my highlights:

  • She calls herself a "joyful warrior"
  • She focuses on the importance of being in the room where it happens
  • She quotes James Baldwin as her inspiration for her belief that "the time is always now"
  • "People say 'it's going to be difficult' as though we're afraid of hard work."
  • "The strongest politics are coalition politics"
  • She said her mother, as she died, "knew her fighting spirit was alive and well inside of me."
  • "Hold on to your friends. None of us achieves what we do without them."

Monday, January 7, 2019

Where I saw God in the first week of 2019


  • I have a friend I love who was in great pain. I tried to make sure they got the care they needed. It reminded me of the Servant Song.
  • I had a brief but powerful retreat at Bethesda Friends Meeting. We had to consider what our heart's deepest desire was and what we needed to let go of to achieve it. I posed my desire as a query: How can I serve as an instrument of God's love? And what do I need to give up in order to achieve it? Fear. Fear that leads to judgment and jealousy and people pleasing.
  • I got much joy from books and tv (especially Black Mirror Schitt's Creek) and movies (especially 6 Balloons) and time spent with friends
  • I went to a 47 Soul concert and was all in. I loved the music itself and its message.
  • For the first time ever I wrote thank you emails to everyone who gave me anything, including a card, for the holiday season. It was a wonderful opportunity to share appreciation for all sorts of people in my life and it was delightful to hear back from many. 
  • I'm grateful for the conversation I had on January 1 about what I am looking forward to in 2019 that led to my developing my goal for the year of slowing down and creating more space for my spiritual life. I quit two committees that same day.

Sunday, January 6, 2019

Wisdom from Almost Everything: Notes on Hope by Anne Lamott


  • "When we discovered who we truly are, through love or a teacher, new life began" (41)
  • "Help is the sunny side of control." (45)
  • "Joy is a habit." (56)
  • "Sharing is what makes us happy" (65)
  • "When we hate, we can't operate from our real selves, which is our strength." (75-6)
  • "Something that helps is to look at adversaries as people who are helping you do a kind of emotional weight training . . . [they are] grace-builders" (76)
  • "The right teacher could work miracles." (79)
  • "Is surprised gratitude the same as love? I don't know. But I think it can be where love begins." (81)
  • "I am part of a great We" (82)
  • "So as a radical act we give up the hate and the hunch the best we can." (84)
  • "gratitude is a very bright light" (116)
  • "Advice God always gives me if I think to ask: Go do some anonymous thing for lonely people, give a few bucks to every poor person you see, return phone calls. Get out of yourself and become a person for others, while simultaneously practicing radical self-care: maybe have a bite to eat, check in with the sky twice, buy some cute socks, take a nap." (131)
  • "There is the wonder of the ethereal, the quantum and at the same time the umbilical. Don't call it God if that lessens it for you. Call it Ed. Call it Shalom. The Quakers, who are not as awful as most other Christians, call it the light." 😂 (132)
  • "God is often in solitude and quiet, through the still, small voice - in the breeze, not the the thunder." (137)
  • "When I pray, I have more good days." (139)
  • "expectations are resentments under construction." (168)
  • "the bigger, more real, and friendlier the world inside me becomes, the safer I feel in the outside world. As above, so below; as inside, so before us." (173)
  • "'Why' is rarely a useful question in the hope business." (183)

Thursday, January 3, 2019

Brand New Day

Today was the first day of our new Congress that is more representative than ever of the demographics of our country (https://www.cnn.com/2019/01/03/politics/new-congress-history-women-diversity/index.html). I was at a program tonight that stressed just how significant this moment is not just because of the backgrounds of these new politicians, but also their backbones. Even before being sworn in, these leaders have taken stands about their orientation and introduction to Congress that have never been taken before. They give me hope.

Tuesday, January 1, 2019

2019 Goal

In 2019, I am setting a single goal -- let there be peace on earth and let it begin with me. I will aim to cultivate internal peace grounded in Spirit and external peace grounded in justice.


As I looked at my highlights of 2018, they were many, and yet very few had to do with my spirituality, with my creating the necessary space to connect with the divine. Toward the end of the year there was one day that I went home early from work to rest because I was so mentally and physically exhausted. So I decided that in 2019 I need to create more space for my interior life. I need to slow down. I was telling that to a friend this morning and when she then asked me what my week looked like and I told her about my weekend full of meetings, I realized that I need fewer committees. By the end of the day I had dropped off of two committees with monthly meetings of 2.5 hours each. Here's to a year of focusing on what is most important to me and letting go of external expectations!