When I sit down to write, I love when I am connected to the Light within me. When I feel that I am using my voice to speak Truth to Power. When I am contributing to a larger societal conversation. When I feel as though I could influence someone. I write so that the still, small voice within me might be heard by someone else and offer Light to them. I write so that I may be a voice for the voiceless. So that I am leveraging my privilege. I love it when my voice feels like it is my strength and my heart combined.
When I sit down to write, I hate when I am lazy. Laziness is a monster with many faces. It looks like Facebook. It looks like email. It is particularly strong when it’s in the form of my work. I love my work. But I love my voice too. I hate when I write in platitudes. They are not my voice.
I love to run because I feel no pressure to be good at it. Writing feels like something that I can be good at, so it is especially hard to take when I feel as though I’m not getting across the dynamism, the vitality, the complexity of my ideas. I feel the pressure. I think sometimes the weight of the responsibility is what crushes the bird of my voice that wants to sing. I’m reminded of Anne Lamott’s advice to write bird by bird.
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